the bitterwurst pilgrim

I usually leave the office at past 6PM everyday and as a routine, I normally clean my table and organize everything before calling it a day. Yesterday, (Friday) was different. I decided to stay a little longer, and made thoughts to myself deeply. The day was fully loaded with a lot of meetings to different people and it even demanded long walks from my workplace. I never had the time to rest, my mind was at lost and I failed to think about personal things. Time was slipping slowly and I had trouble keeping up.

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Gone are the days that I could even think of coffee breaks. Life is now on the fast lane that I have somehow neglected other's feelings. People now have this impression that I'm cold to everyone, with lukewarm emotions.

These people must have forgotten that I am in fact, human too. Equipped with a beating heart and has the capacity to love, without mercy of asking love in return. People should think deeper, for they lack depth. It's hard to accept, but these people lost my trust. They are mere poor hollow living souls born with superficial looks.

It breaks my heart that no matter how much kindness you project everyday, you're being taken for granted. Likewise, with the same amount of concern towards others, it would never be appreciated. I pity for such impression for having developed a deep and binding relationship with friends and soon you discovered that it's nothing but shallow.

Bitterness? Not really. I only speak about my hurt feelings, which has been with me for years that I never considered sharing to friends that are permanently indisposed.

This is just a way of relieving myself from anger that no matter what I say, the world will keep on turning. I've been told a hundred times that life is unfair, and there's nothing I can do about it.